I asked him to send me back to that time. I didn't think how hard it would be. I spent so many years fighting people who used to be my friends, and I didn't...I couldn't treat them that way. I had different goals, but I still didn't trust them not to betray me.

[She was still alone. She's never done well, alone.]

When I realized that I'd made mistakes-- [She smiles grimly, ruefully, because she's not entirely sorry about this part,] --that if I spent another second in conversation with Uther, I'd kill him - I called for the Admiral.